So I am having one of those days. The ones where I wake up at 12am & 4 am for feedings only to have my toddler wake up screaming at 4:30. I got Joshua back to sleep after his feeding (finally) and David had calmed down. By then it was already 5am so rather than sleep for the next hour (maybe) I decided to get up & shower. Those were my last peaceful moments.
I got out of the shower to the sound of David fussing again. I got dressed and closed our door to let Tony & Joshua sleep some more. I came out to the living room, but David had quieted again. So I started the coffee maker and had my grapefruit. David woke up twice while I was eating....the second time he was much louder so I decided to just go get him.......5:45am.
He was a bit fussy (still cutting some teeth.....and possibly fighting off a bug) but not too bad. Gave him his milk, banana, and "O's". He cuddled and fussed a bit.....but let me drink my coffee. Finally got him in a good enough mood to try a diaper change by 6:30 and then he started chanting for juice. I just ignored it....he still had milk....and cuddled him or read books.
Tony got up just after 7.....as I was dishing up David's eggs for breakfast. He laid on the couch while I sat with David so he could eat. He ate pretty well, considering he was so fussy. Finished most of his egg, all of his banana, and then he got his precious juice. I got him out of the highchair and let him watch Sesame Street. I was just sitting down to check my e-mail when Joshua woke up. Tony got him and changed him (thank goodness) while I went to the bathroom......David sitting on my lap the whole time. (Who knew being a mommy would entail going potty with an audience in tow so often?)
I fed Joshua as Tony changed David's diaper......good poopy one. Glad I missed it. After that he just became a major fuss. Wanted to hit Joshua or sit on him while he was trying to nurse. Tony dosed him with tylenol for the teething pain & slight fever and we gave him a half cup of his juice. By 8:30 Joshua was looking drousy so I put him down in his new crib in their shared room. This was going to be his first nap in there. David went in for his nap at 9....Joshua was already asleep.
Then it really fell apart. David began to scream like he was being tortured, Joshua woke up & began to fuss, I felt like Tony was criticizing my decision to try naptime in the same room, and I fell apart as I went to get Joshua. I cried while I nursed him again and Tony sat with David in the room to calm him down.
I am sitting here feeling like a bad parent for making the mistake of trying them in the room sharing today. I am also feeling like an awful wife b/c it has been FOREVER since we have DTD. I am hating the sound of my children waking up again.......and wanting to just go back to bed.
So, yes......one of those days. I hope it improves from here. It has to, right???
Saturday, March 28, 2009
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Make a date night with DH to DTD and then follow through. You'll both feel more patient with one another and you'll feel more connected too. As for the boys, you had to try nap time at some point and why not today? It's a weekend and to me that seems like the best time. You have two babies, it's not always going to be a cake walk but you're trying. You are a wonderful mom. Keep your head up! :)
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