Friday, April 10, 2009

Letter to My Husband

Dear Tony,

I love you. I must start with that because if I don't I will lose sight of it. I am aching in my heart & too hurt for words right now....at least spoken ones. I know this is a disease and not something you do just to hurt us. I need you to get help. We have two boys who adore you & want to spend time with you. You have a wife who loves you more than she can say. I want to grow old with you & raise our children together. I want to spoil our grandchildren together.

You are in the hospital again as I write this for the 4th bout of pancreatitis. I remember the 1st time the doctor told us that you had to stop now because you could easily become a chronic case. Well....I think we are there. Four episodes in less than 3 years seems pretty chronic to me. We haven't even paid off the medical bills from your 1st 3 trips....now we are facing a 4th.

I know my mother says that you being the sole source of income is an added stress that may be causing this. That hurts me to my core. We made the decision together to have me stay at home with our boys because we both feel it in their best interest. If it truly is causing you to have added stress & thus repeat your past behaviors then I need to know. We could make it work.......

I love you with all my heart.....you are truly my best friend. Please, if for nobody's sake but your own.......go get help!

signed,
your loving wife

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